Last weekend I was able to walk and sing at my first Relay For Life event and it was an amazing experience. The survivors were given purple shirts which read ‘Celebrate, Remember, Fight Back.’ What a great mantra because that is what we were all there to do. There were so many survivors, all different ages, colors, genders, cancer knows no bounds. During my trip around the track in the Survivor Lap, I was overwhelmed with joy at the fact that my fight is currently over and I have won. I couldn’t keep a smile off my face. At one point my mom (who walked the lap with me along with my family) turned around and said, ‘I want to cry’. I was walking with fighters; people given no choice but to stand up and fight for their lives. We are told we are strong when in fact, we rise up and do what we need to do. The sign that impacted me the most in that lap was one that read ‘I love birthdays.’ I was overcome with emotion and just couldn’t stop the tears. The thing is, is that I have always loved birthdays. As a child, even though I didn’t have many birthday parties, my parents made me feel like the most important person on that day. It was a celebration of me. After cancer, birthdays are all the more important. The first surgeon said my diagnosis was poor and wasn’t sure how much time I had left, and with the cancer continually coming back I wasn’t so sure myself. Every birthday since that diagnosis has been a milestone for me. I tear up every year at the significance of a birthday. It has also been a time to reflect on the past year and its events. After the survivor lap I was asked to sing which was overwhelming. I made it through ‘Over the Rainbow’ and as the crowd of survivors, walkers, and supporters, all people touched by cancer, applauded, I wept. I was told I would never sing again and here I was.
Something fun that I did this week was to go on my second lipstick consultation trip. I shopped with a friend to help her find her perfect shade for this season. It turned out to be a new Armani long wear lipgloss in Plum. It’s a light plum gloss with great consistency and not too much shimmer…I bought one too! That will be my color this week…light plum; highlighting your natural self and adding a little bling, enough said!
I love birthdays!