I have always been a dreamer. When I was younger, I dreamed of being little orphan Annie on Broadway (kinda impossible because I’m Filipino). Then, when Grease came out, I dreamed of being Sandy…again, impossible. In my mind I knew those were not the roles for me, but I never gave up on the dream of singing and dancing on a stage. Thinking back, I never really had any other dreams or goals besides that. Fortunately in my short 40+ years of life, I have been on many a stage. I’ve been on television, radio, and I even got my chance to sing on a Broadway stage (not quite in a show…long story for another day). When I received the call that my cancer had returned a few years back, I reassessed what my dreams and goals were. I knew singing may be over for me (because of my paralyzed vocal cord and where my cancer was), but I sat and thought about the things I would want to do if I had nothing stopping me. My list included writing a book, learning a new instrument, mastering a new language, running a marathon among other things. As I looked at the list when I finished, I wondered what took me so long? Learning a new instrument or langauge? Just start. Training for a marathon, writing a book? Just start.
Why does it take a slap on the face with your own mortality to sit and think about what things you want to do or accomplish in life? Life is short and my list included some of the simplest things, nothing so grandiose that it could not be done. I haven’t checked everything off my list and there are things I can no longer do (like running a marathon because after cancer returned a third time, it took a toll on my breathing), but that’s ok. My bucket list is forever revolving. It revolves around my health, my finances, and my family; it revolves around my kids and what I wish for them. Besides my selfish desires to get back in shape, travel to Europe, learn the guitar, etc, I also have the desire to be remembered and to leave a positive legacy for my kids. When I got the call that my cancer had returned a third time, I forgot about my list, I don’t even know where it is anymore because I don’t need it. I know for a fact life can change in a second, with one phone call. Life is an adventure to be lived daily. Dreams, goals, bucket list, resolutions…whatever it is, what’s stopping you? When I think of something I want to do now, I start on that path, sometimes I get there, sometimes not. Think, start, live!
Today I wear Stila Lip Glaze in Kaleidoscope a sparkly pink (which is part of a limited edition holiday set). Soft enough to wear on top of lipstick to add a hint of pink, I chose it because when you look in a Kaleidoscope, the shapes are everchanging, but still beautiful…just like your dreams!