There have been several emotions swirling in my mind over the past few weeks (obviously); joy, sadness, anger, and fear because of various reasons. When I was young, I was shy, painfully shy. My parents are extremely social and we would either be at a party or hosting one. At those parties I was either attached to my parents’ hip or after doing the obligatory hello’s (and playing the piano…I am Filipino), I would try to escape to my room to read, write, or listen to music. I wasn’t sad or lonely, just a shy introvert who would be overwhelmed by crowds and having to socialize. My shyness carried on for pretty much all of my youth until college where I sort of blossomed. In Jr. and Sr. high I became involved in sports, choir, plays, student government. Then I was on a TV show and won a couple beauty pageants my mom encouraged me to join to increase my confidence and break out of my shyness. Despite those things, I was still shy, opening up to few, but kind to all. What happens when you have a few accomplishments and are mostly quiet? People talk about you, rumors, and even lies sometimes. Why? 1. To feel better about themselves, 2. To convince people that they are better than the person they are talking about, or 3. Whatever lies they are pushing, it’s because they are actually the one that’s guilty of said lie(s). Sometimes they repeat it so much, they actually start believing it…scary.
What does this all have to do with me today? Well, I just went through a divorce and am keeping quiet about the details. I have had really incredible support through both the cancer and the divorce from people who have done life with me, worked with me, family, and even people I have had very little interaction with. Why? My parents taught me well…love God, love others; practice patience, kindness, gratefulness. Although I can still get shy sometimes, I try with my actions to be and do these things; not always succeeding but consciously always trying to be a positive force. Today there are lies being told and believed by even a few of those who were close to me. Hurtful? Absolutely, but although my heart hurts at times, I can hold my head high knowing the truth and also feeling confident that the truth eventually comes out. Actions speak louder than words and sometimes your actions show people who you are. “There is beauty in truth, even if it’s painful. Those who lie, twist life so that it looks tasty to the lazy, brilliant to the ignorant, and powerful to the weak. But lies only strengthen our defects. They don’t teach anything, help anything, fix anything or cure anything. Nor do they develop one’s character, one’s mind, one’s heart or one’s soul.”~ José N. Harris
Today I wear Nars lipstick in Heatwave. Nars is famous for great lipsticks. This formula is semi-matte so it’s a little drying for me but still great. I chose this color for the simple reason that I WANT SUMMER BACK!! Cheers!
Anna's Lipstick Journey 
I’m sure you know the best response to lies is to live a good life. You’re just fine. The people who would hurt you with lies are not worthy of your friendship.
❤️
Thank you Jo, it gets tiring keeping quiet and trying to ‘rise above’
Hi. So sorry for people trying to steal your happiness
Your in my thoughts and prayers
Love
Diane 💋😃👯💄
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Thanks Diane! Lipstick soon 🙂
I must say that I am EXTREMELY disappointed in anyone who chooses to believe these lies! Rather than being a reflection on you, Anna, it is clearly a reflection on them (and the well practiced skill of the liar). Let’s see … who was it that said that “by their fruits, you will know them”? I smell rotten fruit. And eventually, if they’re smart at all, others will smell it too. Love and prayers always, dear friend.
Thanks Grace! Praying for that truth!
Don’t let any of those untrue lies bother you! We who know you and love you matter!!!!! Keep the FAITH! Love you girl!!! 🙂
Thank you Judy! Love you!
I am so sorry you are having to experience this negativity at a point in your life when you need support and positive influences. Hold you head high and know that “the truth will out” and it will set you free!
Patiently waiting for the truth to come out, but biting my tongue til it bleeds just to be the ‘better person’
Hopefully it’ll make you happy that not everyone has heard these rumors. Knowing you, I’d never believe them anyway. You’re good people Anna.
Thank you Laura, trying to stay positive!